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I am joining the SJGR club...read the following post and join me!

 http://www.gradydoctor.com/2013/07/team-sjgr-heart-manifesto-and-exodus.html

This post gets real and gets to the heart of the matter....

May our hearts beat strong and together!
I do love you all,
Terry

Have you lost weight?

Yes, I am still here and yes, except for a few small ingestions of things not on plan...I am hanging in.  Barely.   

I'm to the point where people notice something about me but  it isn't totally clear that I am smaller than I used to be.  Kind of like, in their head, they think, "wasn't she bigger?" but are afraid to compliment me because then I will know they thought I was really fat!

Well, I have lost some weight...21 pounds to be exact and you can hardly tell.  That is such a shame but it is what "it is."  I am not in a smaller size pants and still look like a "big girl" but I can see the very fronts of my toes when I look down...so I am making progress. 

I have some things to admit.  I do not have the aching joints like I did when I ate pounds and pounds of garbage.  I have a little more energy...not tons but more that I used to.  Oh, and I don't crave junk either.  I do crave a nice glass of wine or two or the bottle...but as we used to say in college..."la-di-da."  No wine for me...

Sunday will be a full 4 weeks and I am guessing I will be down 25 pounds.   That should be good, huh?

May we see less of each other next time,
Love,
Terry

Staying on the program

I have been on the program for amost two weeks...since Monday, June 3rd.  I am kind of proud that I was able to convince my "food loving" mind to eat well.  I had a heck of a headache for 5 days after I stopped all things bad.  No wine, no soda, no diet soda, no bread, no pasta, no carbs and no caffiene...only ice water and lots of it.   I made it to day 10 without caffiene and decided that was something that I will not be able to live without.  I have been drinking coffee since I was 3 and I am 49 now.  I headed back to the gym and I made it 5 days last week too.  Feeling hopeful that this life change and diet change is something that I can do for the rest of my life.  Oh, and I lost 16 pounds!  Hope if you are on this journey with me, you are sticking to your plan as well.

Keep on keepin' on...
May we see less of each other next time.
Love,
Terry

Friday thoughts...

I need new thoughts for Fridays and honestly for the whole weekend.  My routine was working on Friday..."tucking all of my patients in for the weekend" but while doing that, thinking about all good food I was going to make and eat for those days.  Then, I would go to the grocery store and buy what I was going to make, dessert for the "boys" and hit the liquor store for good measure.  Then, I would come home, put out the "poo-poo's" (hors de vours as they call them in Hawaii), pour myself a glass of wine, call Jim to join me and sit.  If it is summer, you on the patio and if it is too cool, you sit on the couch.  By God, I deserve that every weekend...at least that is what I thought/think.

Doesn't that sound wonderful?  Well, it does to me.  You can imagine how the rest of the night goes...mindlessly eat hummus and carrots or crackers while sipping my wine, then refilling the glass while I put the other meal on and then finally when we do eat dinner...I've had two glasses of wine, a whole tub of hummus, so many carrots that my vision should be 20/20 and I made a whole other course to eat.  And...eat I did.

I deserve to eat good food, I mean, I take care of people all the time and what does a few glasses of wine and nice meals hurt?  In my mind, it helps me decompress and relax...

Gotta change that story and it starts tonight.  The good thing is, Jim isn't home tonight and I can make a healthy meal.  And, the guy who owns the liquor store called the house yesterday because he hasn't seen me all week (just kidding).  Honestly, I probably consumed all my weeks calories on the weekend with my pink wine! 

It is Friday and I will work all day..."tucking" as I like to think about it.  Then, I will come home and drink water because I almost feel achy from all the detoxing I am doing.  Then, I will water my plants, visit my animals, plan dinner with my son (I hope), eat my healthy meal and watch a movie.  I rented "The Big Chill" from the library and can't wait to watch it again.  I don't think I have seen that in 20 years.

So...wish me luck, I'm gonna need it.  Those voices in my head are really not happy with this new way of eating!

May we see less of each other next time,
Love,
Terry

Numero Dos...

In the true fashion of me...I haven't eaten a morsel of food for two days now.  I am fasting, I guess or I am participating in a torture plan.  What is it about me that has to be all or nothing?  It's seems to be how I have lived my whole life really.  In respect to dieting, I am either all in or all out.  I am on a diet or I am definitely not on a diet. 

I made it through yesterday and am struggling already with today.  I am supposed to go to brunch with some buddies and I have some decisions to make...

*Am I still dieting? 
* Does that mean I am not eating anything at all? 
* What if I don't ever get to go out to eat at a restaurant ever again?

You see...that is how my brain works...all or nothing!

I'll let you know how it goes...

May we see less of each other next time.
Love,
Terry

The first one in the books...

I made it through yesterday on track mostly and didn't go crazy.  I am still in my head about how I am missing out on all the good food there is to eat but I am working on changing those thoughts.  No wine, no junk and no soda...if I could just stick to those rules, I would take off a few. 

The box arrived by my garage door and of course, it was dissappointing.  It was a binder with print outs, fiber, vitamins, a pedometer, and a food scale.  I read the binder cover to cover and guess what?  IT WASN'T MAGIC!!!!  I wanted magic and easy stuff for the money. 

This morning, I mixed up the fiber shake, drank it and am waiting to be 50 pounds lighter this afternoon...or not.  I am sure I will have to be close to a bathroom most of the day but hey, that's one way to take a few off and honestly, I am not too proud.

Keep me posted and I'll keep you posted and maybe by they end of the week...

We'll see less of each other tomorrow,
Love,
Terry

Getting off the struggle bus...

" We are still the masters of our fate. We are still the captains of our souls".            Thank you Winston Churchill    

 

Life is struggle enough...don't you think?  As I said last night, I am permanently getting off of the struggle bus and I am either gonna walk or ride my bike or at least start to try.  

 

It's funny because sometimes I will hate the way something is...how dirty the house is, how  the sheets pull off of my bed when I roll around all night or how my pants fit and feel like there is no way out.  Crazy...Crazy...Crazy.

 

It's about starting to do something positive and stringing a couple of days together.  It's about changing the voices in your head.   (People get uncomfortable when I say that...about voices...but my husband assures me that everyone has them.) It's about taking things a day or an hour or a minute at a time.

 

So Good morning and good luck...to me and whomever is getting off the bus with me.  The route the "struggle" bus is taking has changed...and this time we are thinking it will not be reinstated.  We or I just need to find a different way to travel to the places I want to go.

 

Goals for today:

1.  Change the voices when I zip the pants...

2.  Drink the freakin' water

3.  Think about every item that comes within 4 inches of my mouth

 

And the biggest one: 

Enjoy this beautiful Colorado day, the work I do and that I am lucky enough to have enough to have all that I have!!

 

May we see less of eachother next time,

Love,

Terry